I prayed and prayed that the next post on my blog would be about sharing good news with everyone.. and guess what..
I AM ON THE ROAD TO BEATING CANCER!!!!
My PET scan has shown that my cancer IS responding to the current chemo drugs I am on.. Which is the best news I have heard in ages.. Now I pray and hope it continues to work and that my next scan brings positive news too!
I received the news over the phone from my cancer nurse specialist.. I had waited for her call so nervously, my phone was always on loud and with me at all times.. I can’t explain the nervous feeling I had.. it’s similar to that feeling you get just before your exam results are revealed, but much more magnified! I was not this nervous when my diagnosis was confirmed because by that point I was convinced it was cancer.. but with this scan result it was so much different.. My doctor had repeatedly said it can go either way..
When my nurse broke the news to me I actually lost it.. I screamed down the phone with excitement.. I am convinced she thinks I am a total nut case! I screamed out to my family and shared the news with them before calling my fiance, inlaws and best friends.. I look forward to seeing my doctor and hearing more details about the scan!
I am not cured of cancer yet, I know my journey is long, but at least I can say I am hopefully on the journey to beating cancer.. It will be a minimum of five years and many more scans before I am ‘cured’.. but I feel I have been given a lantern of hope which will now guide me more easily through my journey..
I desperately needed the good news ahead of my next chemo session.. It won’t make the side effects of chemotherapy any better.. but at least I now know this toxic nasty treatment is working at present!
If all continues to go well I only need 6 more months of chemotherapy in total!!! I am so excited.. I can finally start ticking days off my wall calendar (which I brought for this purpose)..
I hope this is the first of many more positive results.. I can’t wait to beat cancer and live the normal life I had.. the life i took for granted..
Quick health update: my nausea continues but my vomiting has stopped.. My sore mouth is better today.. I have completely given up on exercising due to my reduced energy levels and poor food intake.. Don’t get me wrong I am not bed bound, I am up and about, but too weak to train.. I have stopped calorie counting and no longer visit the weighing scale, as my nausea means I eat very little.. I am trying to eat as much as I can (the tables have turned) but it is not always easy! The taste in my mouth has also changed which does not help with eating.. I have a constant metallic taste in my mouth.. Like I am licking on metal.. it’s disgusting and makes my nausea worse! My hair or what is left of it is terrible.. I now wear a band/scarf on my head and wore my wig when I went to my friends house on Friday.. My eyebrows have thinned out and my eye lashes are falling off.. Anyway..
Next chemo is this week.. I am very nervous as I threw up a lot with my last chemo.. Just thinking about it makes me feel sick.. But I will focus on ticking off the days on my calendar..
Finishing off on positive vibes..
My beautiful friend Jichi.. Thank you soooooo much this is so pretty!!! Love you so much!!!
My better half.. You are my biggest gift.. No more needs to be said.. Thank you..
With love.. XxxX